Monday, December 27, 2010

The Sem that WAS

Turkey to Dubai to India- that’s how my journey for the last year of my college life began. On 4th Aug 2010, nearly 20 days after reopening of my college, I joined my friends at college. I arrived my hostel at 2 am… Nirupam and Rishikesh were there to escort me. Aaah..that was what I was waiting for- my friends. New hostel, new room, the same 3 year old friends, our rounds of laughter and Turkish Cigara made my first night of my last year in college. That very morning Nirupam woke me up saying “bhai Tata Motors aayi hai placement k liye, lets go and give the written exam”, I was so very uninterested but my friends pulled my for it. I cleared the written test, I don’t know how. I was very sure of clearing the GD round, I called my dad and told him the situation, to my surprise he dint want TATA rather a PSU and asked me to drop out. I sat for GD, dint say a word but at the end I was asked by the panel to summarize the GD and again to my surprise I was selected saying those few lines for the final interview. All others were so happy; on the other hand I was damn scared of being selected. I gave my interview, after sometime Adhiep (our TPR) came to me and said “Bhai your name is in the selected candidates list probably”. It was all my parent’s wish to drop and I had to do it, I knew I was losing a big deal but cudnt help it. I went inside the Panel’s chamber and requested to knock me out of the list, finally relieved. AND THE BAD LUCK STARTS……

September was scheduled for my GRE exam, BAD LUCK knocked and I met an incident cum accident cum fight cum ditches cum back stabbing on September 2nd. I shifted my exam date to 1st October but just spoiled it all. I was still not in favor of doing a job and wanted to study further but hardly any hopes left. I attended many parties for my friends being placed, boozing kinda became a habit. But unlike some idiots I never felt jealous for my friends being placed and me standing short unplaced. Placements are always a matter of proud for a institute and my friends made NIT Dgp proud. Almost all the branches are done with 85% placements. I am happy, not for me but for my friends and my college.

This semester nothing was going right. Neither acads, nor extra- curricular works nor internal and external affairs nor public and private relations. I was totally stuck in NOTHING this semester. Every time my basic rule flashed ifo my eyes “Whatever happens, happens for something good”….I was finding something good, one positive aspect in this negative arena…yeah I was finding but I did not know someone is keeping a watch on me- BAD LUCK: I got caught using mobile phone during my 7th semester exams and I am given a supplementary in that paper with my mobile phone (actually my friend’s mobile) still hanging with the academic section. I am frustrated….nothing is smooth except Boozing and Weed :P

It seems everything I earned in past 3 years at NITD is running away from me- the zest, the life, the relations, the pride and that little name and fame.

But I thought- Guru itna sochne ki kya zarurat hai…Jo hona hai wo hoga isliye jo ho rha hai usko hone do, log jaa rhe hain unko jane do kyuki jane wale ko koi ni rok sakta, jo tumpe hans rha hai unhe hansne do kyuki ye unki sehat k liye achha hai, log dhoka de rhe hain dene do kyuki dhoka dena unka kaam hai aur samhlna tumhara kaam.

Lastly the words of my darling Supriya rang in my ears-“jo insan achha hota hai uske sath kabhi bura ni ho sakta”. I said to myself “beta shanky rone ki koi zarurat nahi hai, agar kuch achha ni ho rha hai to bura bhi nahi hoga, tum bas geet gungunate chalo aur apni raah banate chalo kyuki JEENA ISI KA NAAM HAI”!!!!

14 comments:

madhyama said...

hey... dont worry, remember, 'humari life mein bhi, humari picturo ki tarah, end tak , sab kuchh thik ho hi jata hai, and agar sab kuchh thik na ho, to wo end nahi hai.... picture abhi baaki hai mere dost'!!!! 4 months are still left and im sure all will turn out well for u :) never give up... all the best :D

madhyama said...

hey... dont worry, remember, 'humari life mein bhi, humari picturo ki tarah, end tak , sab kuchh thik ho hi jata hai, and agar sab kuchh thik na ho, to wo end nahi hai.... picture abhi baaki hai mere dost'!!!! 4 months are still left and im sure all will turn out well for u :) never give up... all the best :D

madhyama said...

hey... dont worry, remember, 'humari life mein bhi, humari picturo ki tarah, end tak , sab kuchh thik ho hi jata hai, and agar sab kuchh thik na ho, to wo end nahi hai.... picture abhi baaki hai mere dost'!!!! 4 months are still left and im sure all will turn out well for u :) never give up... all the best :D

SHANKY said...

Hey thnx Madhhi!
Yaar once a close frnd of mine said "Whatevr situation you are in you actually deserve that- whether good or bad". This sem I was always into Bad Circumstances. Leaving TATA wasn't my decision. Stitches on my head was because I advocated for something good to our dean. 85% NITDGPians cheat I was in the list of unlucky 40 defaulters.

I havn't given up, I just wonder how come I deserve all these and that too at this point of time. Well whatevr the outcome may be...this sem would nvr be forgotten. I have LIVED this sem and waiting for the next and the last one with new eyes, no hopes, no expectations, smiles and my friends!
Just miss some stances of Love that I suppose I have lost.

trish said...

It is very much human to plan your life.Each one of us has a plan but then LIFE happens..then you are left only with one choice i.e. you have to deal with your life.
Plus it is important to win the war and not every battle.
Cheers to LIFE!

SHANKY said...

Yeah very true....the WAR is still on....But I am wounded, it needs time to heal but this 10 headed Ravana is not giving me time sweetheart.

trish said...

Remember that every devil has an achilles' heel..& so does this Ravan .All you need is to identify and attack it!
Don't worry about your wounds...time heals everything.

Anonymous said...

Dude mere naam ka spelling Adheip hai and not adhiep. Correction kar mote.

Aur haan mote, itna bhi frustrate mat ho. Aish karne ke pal bhi aayenge. Ab bhi tumhara PSU lagna baaki hai.

Be chaapless and everything wil be cool.

SHANKY said...

Maa kasam dubara CHAAPLESS na bolna tu adhIEp :P :P

Aakash said...

lalaji dont worry, you are fighter to the core... though lost many battles..the war continues!!

and you missed one point..bad luck didn't started at TM but at dubai airport...

jaroor kuch gadbad kiya hoga dubai mein... :P

SHANKY said...

Ohh right mota bhai..how can I forget the Dubai airport incidence. I think you are right my bad luck started from there itself.

Unknown said...

awesome blog bhai but dont worry as maddhi said picture abhi baaki hai mere dost,although dese r not her lines :P,and its true some bad things happened,but dose r just to make u more strong to face d outer world,just a practice b4 u leave,and i know u r strong enough,or hum to hai na bhai always dere,just keep a lil faith :)and bhai as i always say just Be Yourself... There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life,and it is up to you to accept them.Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.It may not be easy at times,but in those times of struggle you will find a stronger sense of who you are..last sem is waiting khoob masti marenge..ok bhai tk cr lv u..10 ka dum(swarnim shabdo ko utaar diya yahan bhi haha)

SHANKY said...

Thanks UT....bas bhai isi sahare ki avshyakta hai :P

Anonymous said...

Nice Blog :)
aur bhai tere life ka " the zest, the life, the relations, the pride and that little name and fame." sab tere se shuru hota hai.. if u WANT it.. it'll alws b thr.. :D ur r a dude person... it takes a lot to publicly speak out ur emotions..!! and worry not dear... ek aur sem hai na... lets not waste it in who thinks wat n wat will happn n wat will ppl say... lets do wat v usd to think "Main collg main jaunga toh ill do dis.. ill do tht" lets make dis sem happenin wid thngs v alws wantd to do wen in collg.. agar jyada phily mar di toh gustakhi muaf kar dena..!! ur a wonderful person..try maintain tht wonder..!! :P hehe.... cya around..!! :)