Radhey Radhey Nights to Marijuana Wings-flying abyss!!

Before I start this phase of writing I would like to say one thing to my friends- Doing only good things doesn’t make your life good or you a good person.
Everyone says that final year is just to chill and enjoy. Last 3 years of my college life I had utilized learning by doing. I was done with GRE,TOEFL, applications, Job (a forced attempts by my parents and friends). I wanted to enjoy joblessly now.

29th January,2011, I called up all my friends to my room for my JSPL treat. There were some 25 smokers that day. Some 5-6 times before the party started Upa asked me “Shanky how many people are coming?” That day we started at 10pm with 25 people in a single seater room..partying hard. After a while when everyone was HIGH...Manas and Hardik played a song on my lappy. The song was new to almost all of us. People were smoking...song was playing...some people left...but song was playing..Naman made GRAVITY..still the song was playing. Some 15 minutes later I realized that my room is under Red lights..Laptop at the centre and everyone around it clapping in a very holy way.

The song was “Radhey Radhey”..it was a 44 minutes track, people were so involved in that song that they forget where they actually were and their(including mine) imaginations took them to god’s place. All thanks to Manas and Hardik who played this almighty song and made Room-322 Hall-4 a Holy Place.

We all were in our own depths....people kept departing and at last just 3 of us left- Me, Niru and Upa. The depth of talks we had that day won’t come ever again. That session of 29th and 30th Jan we named as GGP!!
Days passed partying harder and came 8th Feb when I got my Admit info from Michigan Tech. The AIM of my college life was done. I was totally relaxed. Day by day the direction of my thinking was changing...I was moving away from the materialistic things and I was enjoying it. To some people I was being unsocial and addicted.
I was never addicted I knew..I was confident on that. I don’t know when but there came a time when I started partying with Swarup Sutar and gradually there were only me and him smoking at his room.

Our thinking level matched nearly perfectly. We had previously worked together in “Boond”. One day we decided to make some songs with our present state of thinking....our thoughts took more depth every next day...we ended up writing some 7-8 songs and composed 2 of them finally. To these compositions we gave the name- “Marijuana Wings-flying abyss”. Now we are on our way to make it professional and open a company “Dream Processors Productions Pvt Ltd”...soon you will find us live in action!!

I spent some very memorable and learning moments with Nirupam, Khera, Upa, Bala, Kussy, Swarup, Bappa Da, Andij, Animesh, Eshan, Rudro, Debayan, Souptik, Sudipto, Rajan, Adhiep and loads fun moments with everyone I smoked with ;)

I met so many new faces partying this way, got to know how much people love me, confronted with different perspectives of different people, made a lot of friends- are all these things wrong? Now the thing is I did not waste my time doing nothing, smoking weed I could attain a different state of mind which I used constructively to drive my passion of making songs. People question- “Why do you smoke weed?” The answer is- “I want to do bad things in a constructive manner” and inspire people. I want to be Jack of All Trades, I want to be little bad to know the importance of good things. I have got so many lifetime memories with my friends partying with.

My fundamental says- First be the person you want to become then enjoy your life trying stuffs you should not. Well i think there shouldn’t be anything left in life to do for which you regret later. I have my own style of enjoying life and I AM PROUD OF IT because at this time I can prove my worth in the market. You do any damn thing but if your intensions and aim are defined then nothing is wrong. This was all about my happy and cheerful journey from “Radhey Radhey Nights to Marijuana Wings-flying abyss”.

I want to say sorry to some of my friends who were always so worried about this part of my life- Watti, Deepak, Priyanka, Deboleena, Madhyama, Supriya, Shreeja, Anchal. I would just say..love me for what I have done to make you all proud but don’t hate me for the things I have done which have hurt you. For me nothing was wrong...I LOVE MY LIFE and MY FRIENDS ARE MY LIFE. God Bless!!

SomeTHING AIMLESS

Well this blog post is something I always wanted to post...but dint..or couldn't or shouldn't...I don't know what.. :O

But here I am with some of my very personal public perceptions- I have been always bad at maintaining individuality..that I confess. I have always tried to see and judge people with my own angle. I remember when I was in class 10th, one night I was sitting and counting the number of "close" friends I had at that time and I stopped doing so when the count was approaching 100. Sometime near to that my dad said "Son your mark-sheets are degrading rapidly, please shorten your friend circle" and I ended with a quality 6 friends- Bhaskar, Avnish, Ashwini, Gaurav, Kumar Karan and Ankur. From then I was totally inspired by those six to lead a life out of league (though being in the crowd- yeah that's important) and constantly I am "trying" to stand up to their inspiration.

The last 7 years have confronted me with some people who are neither out of league nor among the crowd. This blog is about those few people. My attitude is..if you can answer "What is the aim of your life?" then you are worth a human, a human who can be my friend else I hardly bother. By AIM I don't mean what is the sole thing you want to do or become; I mean whats next you want to achieve or rigidly try for. There are people who are not so very clear with their "aim" but have some "purpose of life"- yeah and that is also cool.

I have some college and school friends who do not have any AIM..not even a Purpose of life. I can't understand how such people enjoy LIFE- a life without hurdles, a life where you have no reason to be happy for winning and no reason to be sad for loosing, a life which has no reason for what you are doing and no reason for what you are not doing, a life in which you do not commit any mistake, a life which has nothing to give to others..not even to your parents, a life from which you cannot learn anything, a life without a plan, a life which has no LIFE. Such people rise up, eat, roam, chat, gossip, sleep and the cycle continues. I really want to know what goes on in such people's mind...and I tell you whenever I think about it I get highly irritated.

Some examples I want to state-
* Kumar Karan (my school mate) used to make the worst guy in the class his best friend and now he is an IITian.
* Shushant Patta (a college friend) got year back but he is best at practical stuffs and in many technical fests he has proved himself against the so called toppers of the institute.
* Debayan Ganguly (another college mate) has got 10 or 11 supplies/backs still made it to TATA MOTORS as I.C. Engines was his only "academic" love.

Hats of to such fellows who have given a tight slap on those faces who have always criticized them for their failure but could never realize what are such people's AIM or simply the Purpose of LIFE.

Guys get up- have some AIM..have some purpose of life. Try to enjoy life with some reason. Try to achieve something in life....even loosing something in life would make a sense. If not for others..not even your parents..try to do it for yourself...be Selfish..even that would be worth. Don't let LIFE go, don't let people call you "SomeTHING AIMLESS".....

Expectations!!

For the 1st time I was walking,
My hand into my dad’s,
He left and I fell,
He expected me to stand myself…
Expectations from an infant!!

Mathematics wasn’t my cup of tea,
I could hardly score a 60 of 100,
They scolded, they slapped me several times,
They expected a 90 of 100
Expectations from a school boy!!

I was 16, I felt infatuation,
I walked around her all time,
She complained to the Principal,
I still expected her to talk to me once,
Expectations of an immature lover!!

I was 18, to be college going,
I worked hard, I was good,
I could not make it to the end,
I expected to join IIT,
Expectations of a teenager!!

I thought I was mature,
Took a chance and again gave my time to her,
Now she enjoyed my company, but I was confused,
I expected her to make me happy too,
Expectations of a young adult!!

I was fond of extra co-curricular activities,
I was enjoying them at college
But it was a time waste to my dad,
He expected me to just score well,
Expectations from a college boy!!

Now I want to study more,
I want to do more, something out of league,
I hate to be simply an engineer,
But mom expects me to do a job
Expectations from a son!!

People around induced in me a thing
They induced something that suffocates me
They have induced in me the repellent of happiness
They have induced in me Expectation
Expectations of ME with MYSELF!!

From school to college- Expectations,
From friends to family- Expectations,
From enemy to a Lover- Expectations,
From academics to my passion- Expectations,
In fact my birth was an expectation, they wanted a Boy!!